Moving!

We're moving!!
A few weeks ago we went to Huntsville to visit hubbys family.  On our trip Blake went on a small job hunt to see how the job market was in his home town.  After only one day on the hunt my husband had 2 call backs and within 24 hours we had a bona-fide job offer.  Oh yea!  They are matching our current salary and the best part, they are helping us move home.

As much as I have loved living in Chicago, when Blake and I found out that his mother has breast cancer we knew that as soon as we had the opportunity to move closer to home we would.  Now that we are moving it almost doesn't seam real.  The pictures are off the wall and there are boxes piled all over the house but until our home is empty and we are on the road it seams surreal.

On a lighter note, I painted Scarletts toes for the first time and OMG is it the cutest thing I have ever seen.  I love baby toes already.  The way they wiggle while she tries to keep her balance.  They way she opens her toes wide when I put them up to my lips....oooohhh I love them.

Birth Video

I want to share the most wonderful moment of my life with you.  I have made this short video viewer friendly (no blood or lady parts), but this is still the birth of my sweet Scarlett so viewer discression advised. :)

PS: you might want to get a tissue ready cause I cry EVERY TIME!

How I love you...let me count the ways

My sweet sweet Scarlett,

You have only been the center of my life for four and a half months but already I can not imagine my life without you.  Everything that I do....I do for you.  Everything I want....I want for you.  Everything I have....I'll give to you

I love everything about you.  I love waking up hearing you coo-ing in your crib.  I remember the first time you rolled over in your crib and I was so proud of you. 

I love it when I nurse you, your toes wiggle against my arm.  My heart melts and I feel the need to suck your toes....until I see the lint, and realize I might need to give you a bath.  

I love it when I take a shower and you lay in your bouncy seat between the tub and the jon giggling at me until its your turn.  When I pull you in, your sweet soft skin all clean and I nurse you under a warm shower.  I can't tell you how much joy you bring into my life.

You are the best sleeper at night and happy baby in the morning which makes my job easy in addition to the most exciting, fulfilling, satisfying (really this list of happy words go on and on) job I have.  Thank you for being my baby.  I love you.

24th Percentile

Scarlett had her 4 month doctors visit yesterday.

I am always nervous when we go into the clinic because I have elected not to give Scarlett her shots yet (possibly never).  This is such a touchy subject for moms and so far I am not sure that the risk of the actual illness is worth the risk of the side effects.  I have no idea what to do.  My mom told me that when I got my shots as a 4 year old she noticed that my behavior changed drastically.  My best friend had her daughter in the hospital 3 times in a month with a high fever after her 1 year shots.  I get so nervous because Scarlett is SO SMALL.  She is in the 24th% for her weight and height.  My doctor is wonderful and I love her but she is very pushy about getting her vaccinated.  Yesterday she tried to bribe me into getting her vaccinated by promising to pierce her ears after her first set of shots.  IDK what to do.

In my confused and terrified state, I have decided to read 2 books....

and.....

 I hope this can help me understand what the best decision is for my baby.  All I want is the best for her for the rest of her life.  I don't want her to get sick from lack of vaccines or because of the vaccines.  SCARY!