How I love you...let me count the ways

My sweet sweet Scarlett,

You have only been the center of my life for four and a half months but already I can not imagine my life without you.  Everything that I do....I do for you.  Everything I want....I want for you.  Everything I have....I'll give to you

I love everything about you.  I love waking up hearing you coo-ing in your crib.  I remember the first time you rolled over in your crib and I was so proud of you. 

I love it when I nurse you, your toes wiggle against my arm.  My heart melts and I feel the need to suck your toes....until I see the lint, and realize I might need to give you a bath.  

I love it when I take a shower and you lay in your bouncy seat between the tub and the jon giggling at me until its your turn.  When I pull you in, your sweet soft skin all clean and I nurse you under a warm shower.  I can't tell you how much joy you bring into my life.

You are the best sleeper at night and happy baby in the morning which makes my job easy in addition to the most exciting, fulfilling, satisfying (really this list of happy words go on and on) job I have.  Thank you for being my baby.  I love you.

Rant: Baby Killers

What is wrong with these evil mothers killing their babies! 
It makes me absolutely sick to my stomach to see the pictures of babies who are missing and mothers who are acting as if their dog ran away!! 
This is not a pet....it is your flesh and blood....a human being with a future and a soul!!! 
How are you not losing your mind without your baby. 
How are you sleeping without knowing where your baby is??? 
OBVIOUSLY you are an EVIL B*** with no heart. 
Death penalty to any woman that can kill their own baby with their own hands.

Lindsey Lowe, 25, Hides pregnancy and smothers twin boys at birth.

Crazy mother suffocats her 4 month old they carries him around in her baby bjorn for hours of shopping!!

I am literally crying as I am typing this because it hurts my heart so much.  I don't understand how a woman can carry a life inside her and hold a precious, innocent baby and not feel complete love.

I have to go.  I need to hold my baby right now and tell her how much I love her and assure her that I will NEVER hurt her.  She has to know that for the rest of my life I will be devoted to her happiness.

I just love her.

This morning Blake and I were woke up by Katie Scarlett gasping for air and flailing around like she was falling...We both jumped up.  As I held her I was terrified.  She was crying big full tears and curling her lips in the most desperate fashion.  

I was thinking did she choke on something?
Did she get bit by something (that I will be killing with great force)???

Does she have a big boogie blocking her airway?

WHAT IS WRONG??

It was so sad.

I called my mother immediately.

She lives in Hawaii and it was 3:30AM there, but I needed professional help.....

(and by professional, I mean a seasoned vet....my mother is a mother of 6)

Mother suggested that she might have had a bad dream.

That sounds about right because after I quit using the nose sucky thingy on her she stopped crying and just smiled as if our faces was all she needed to soothe her.

It is amazing how seeing her frown can break my heart completely and her smile can immediately make whole again.  I have never been so wholly consumed with love then when I see my precious daughters face. I love her beyond reason.  

I just love her.